Bassist_Diver wrote:Overslept, didn't get enough coffee, and now I have to sit through a 3 hour "Forecasts for 2018" presentation followed by my new hire ethics and inclusiveness training. It's gonna be a long day.
I did my forecasts last week, I think I only missed by around 800k in 2017
inclusiveness training sounds brutal.
The forecasts presentation was a bit longer than it needed to be but still not that bad.
Ethics training was ethics training, basically don't be corrupt or break the law. Inclusiveness training could have just been "be excellent to each other, don't be a dick" and it would have done just as good as job getting the message across.
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Had a long talk with my fiancee about where my depression stems from. I'll share it here in NSFW brackets just so I don't clog up shit on this thread, but I trust and love y'all enough to share it here.
So pretty much all of my issues stem from having to step in and be a paternal figure for my sisters when my parents were fighting. Back then, money stressed them both out and they took it out on eachother. This was a 360 flip from how they were when me and my sisters were kids. So they turned to me to vent and cry too because outwardly, I appeared unfazed. But internally, it killed me to watch my parents relationship buckle like that. Of course, I couldn't let my sisters see that, so I held in my emotions until I forgot how to feel and essentially became dead inside.
Now, they're both older and have moved on to better things. But that "I need to be a protector/emotional punching bag" mindset never really went away. I just never took a long enough look at myself to realize this.
Just hearing my fiancee tell me "you dont need to protect anyone anymore" completely dashed the weight I have been carrying for years.
Im not 100% better yet, and Im planning on starting up sessions with a therapist finally. But for the first time in a long time it looks like theres light at the end of this.
Sorry for the rant. I love you guys like I love fuzz. Be well, PM me if you ever need anything.
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BitchPudding wrote:
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Brother, that's huge. You're very fortunate you came to some sort of conclusion. Best of luck coping with it, knowing what you know now. Huge progress man. Good for you and your fiance.
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BitchPudding wrote:Had a long talk with my fiancee about where my depression stems from. I'll share it here in NSFW brackets just so I don't clog up shit on this thread, but I trust and love y'all enough to share it here.
So pretty much all of my issues stem from having to step in and be a paternal figure for my sisters when my parents were fighting. Back then, money stressed them both out and they took it out on eachother. This was a 360 flip from how they were when me and my sisters were kids. So they turned to me to vent and cry too because outwardly, I appeared unfazed. But internally, it killed me to watch my parents relationship buckle like that. Of course, I couldn't let my sisters see that, so I held in my emotions until I forgot how to feel and essentially became dead inside.
Now, they're both older and have moved on to better things. But that "I need to be a protector/emotional punching bag" mindset never really went away. I just never took a long enough look at myself to realize this.
Just hearing my fiancee tell me "you dont need to protect anyone anymore" completely dashed the weight I have been carrying for years.
Im not 100% better yet, and Im planning on starting up sessions with a therapist finally. But for the first time in a long time it looks like theres light at the end of this.
Sorry for the rant. I love you guys like I love fuzz. Be well, PM me if you ever need anything.
I'm sorry you went through that, that sounds tough for any kid to bear. I'm glad things are looking up, it sounds like you deserve some happiness.
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Corey Y wrote:As someone who's heard the n-word no less than 5 times at work in the past 7 months, I wouldn't stick my nose up at some "inclusiveness training".
So I'm certainly not trying to pass the impression that I'm a bigot or a racist or something by poo-pooing inclusiveness training. I just feel that if your workplace requires training on how not to be a racist pile, you probably missed the mark during the hiring process.
Postal delivery workers in my region of CT are inefficient, deceitful heaps of human excrement. The waste of tax dollars and postal fees who currently covers my neighborhood now fails to deliver mail for one or more days at a time and continually manipulates the tracking system to indicate nonexistent notices have been left for undelivered packages that would have easily fit into our mailbox and didn't require a signature. The local post office is no longer answering its phone during business hours. I've filed two online complaints this week and am about to storm into the post office and demand time with a supervisor.
mildly irritating: people who never smile. like, ever. even when they're happy. wtf?! If I could just ram an LSD infused unicorn horn up their asses...
So I can listen to basically anything as far as music goes with exception to pop country.. but I'm at a bar .. and someone has put an entire Kid-Rock album on the jukebox somehow. It's just disgusting. I'm so irritated
BP, i'm really glad that you've been able to find some answers for yourself. therapy can really help to dig out the loose ends of the past, too. keep going...you're on the way!
Od, i know how you feel. today has started out really weird, but i'm going to try to do better as the day goes on. it's snowing here today, so i think i'm going to go out and walk in the snow to get rid of the weird nightmares that are hanging around from last night.
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dubkitty wrote:BP, i'm really glad that you've been able to find some answers for yourself. therapy can really help to dig out the loose ends of the past, too. keep going...you're on the way!
Od, i know how you feel. today has started out really weird, but i'm going to try to do better as the day goes on. it's snowing here today, so i think i'm going to go out and walk in the snow to get rid of the weird nightmares that are hanging around from last night.
Snowing here, too. Hopefully the weirdos stay home and give me a peaceful day at work.
