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neonblack wrote:Do you ever just sit back and take a good look at yourself and realize all your riffs are shit and you're a garbage musician?

Almost always. Sometimes I'll get into it for a minute but it's always like YEAHHHHHHHHHhhhhwaitthisfuckingsucksi'mdone

Yeah, I had a pretty bad headache earlier. I started a second job last week, which is cool but I'm still adjusting. And I tried to go play after a double shift and nothing sounded right. I also think I need to get my guitar setup with heavier strings.

Anyways, I'll try again Sunday and will probably feel much better about it.

I think I'm also putting a lot of pressure on myself as the main riff writer in my band to keep coming up with cool and interesting parts and push myself to be a better guitar player while also trying to incorporate vocals.

UGGGHHH

Keep a pen and pad by your bed (wherever you sleep). With all the hours you are working the creative juices are going to be prime potency when you sleep. If you wake up in the middle of R.E.M. write that stuff down. Write down your dreams when you wake up too. As someone who has worked multiple jobs at once and upwards of 80 hours a week doing crap jobs, hydration wins battles.

I find it's easier to play and sing when my top strings are tuned in fifths. That way with one finger on any fret of any two strings, you already have your power chord. Using another finger you can go to your former power chord posiiton or other frets to get interesting voicings. Right now I am tuned in AEBFCC. I prefer heavier strings myself cause my finger picking attack is more akin to a socially awkward lobster just trying to have a good time.

Not liking my job at all right now. I mean, I love what I do, but there's so much crap being talked by collegues about other collegues behind backs and all it's starting to get to me. Kinda stuck between two "camps" who try everything to get at each other. As for me, I'm not interested in talking or taking down anyone else. People aren't always best friends but can get along proffesionally if they try. But yeah, that sucks. I don't have problem with anyone except for the fact that everyone else seems to have a problem with everyone else.

Also, band drama. Ugh.

I'll be going to Roskilde by myself. I'm like that guy in that Beck song.

neonblack wrote:Do you ever just sit back and take a good look at yourself and realize all your riffs are shit and you're a garbage musician?

If we're being honest. I go through this almost every time I play. Then I realized I'm playing for the sheer joy of playing and am thankful that I have the fingers and hands to even do so.

I'm really afraid I can't get a job. Im trying. I'm interviewing. I'm just not good enough. I should play more guitar.

$harkToootth wrote:I prefer heavier strings myself cause my finger picking attack is more akin to a socially awkward lobster just trying to have a good time.

Touched my eye after making spicy habanero curry.

Oofy doofy!

Coulda been a worse part

one my best friends tried to od for the 4th time today. I don't know what to do. I've already said everything I could. I don't know what the fuck to do

resincum wrote:one my best friends tried to od for the 4th time today. I don't know what to do. I've already said everything I could. I don't know what the fuck to do

Man, that is truly awful, I'm so sorry. It sounds like you really need to find a way to get him into rehab. Maybe if you get everyone who knows him involved, it would help.

chuckjaywalk wrote:I'm really afraid I can't get a job. Im trying. I'm interviewing. I'm just not good enough. I should play more guitar.

Had this fear too. Keep your head up man, keep moving forward. Dont give up. And definately play more guitar!

the thing is, he's already been to rehab. cost him a shitload of money and it was like being in prison. I know he's been looking for a better one for a bit, but lately his family has been treating him like a piece of shit and its wearing him thin. I offered to take him to a mental hospital, no earfulls, but he's reluctant. I even straight up offered to take him to a damn celebrity rehab kind of place and I'll pay for it till the day I die but he's not having it. I'm going to try find a legit place and detail the whole plan to him but even then, I KNOW he just wants to die. I keep telling him life can prevail, he a so pessimistic. it's like talking to a brick wall. its like the only person that can help is him. I just want to be there for him. I don't wantmy best friend to die. I think an intervention situation would just backfire unless we had a bad ass plan in place. he's not a junkie. been on methadone for a while now (once a day vs multiple heroin shots a day) and I think that's what really fucked him. it's going to be be long time before he'll feel "normal' again and I know it terrifies him to his core.I had a feeling he was going to try again today. I'm not ready for it. I hope he isn't either and something happens. I'm tired of thinking about my best friend killing himself..I can only imagine what's going through his head

resincum wrote:the thing is, he's already been to rehab. cost him a shitload of money and it was like being in prison. I know he's been looking for a better one for a bit, but lately his family has been treating him like a piece of shit and its wearing him thin. I offered to take him to a mental hospital, no earfulls, but he's reluctant. I even straight up offered to take him to a damn celebrity rehab kind of place and I'll pay for it till the day I die but he's not having it. I'm going to try find a legit place and detail the whole plan to him but even then, I KNOW he just wants to die. I keep telling him life can prevail, he a so pessimistic. it's like talking to a brick wall. its like the only person that can help is him. I just want to be there for him. I don't wantmy best friend to die. I think an intervention situation would just backfire unless we had a bad ass plan in place. he's not a junkie. been on methadone for a while now (once a day vs multiple heroin shots a day) and I think that's what really fucked him. it's going to be be long time before he'll feel "normal' again and I know it terrifies him to his core.I had a feeling he was going to try again today. I'm not ready for it. I hope he isn't either and something happens. I'm tired of thinking about my best friend killing himself..I can only imagine what's going through his head

This is really rough. It sounds like you have done almost everything you can for him, the only advice I can offer is to keep it up, do everything you can to try to get through to him. It's really hard to help someone who won't help themself, but I really hope you can find a way to help your friend.