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Thanks for answering. Good luck with 'chilling out'. Easier said than done.

Lately when I need to laugh I just think about Soy Boys and Arby's.

Finally found my other amp.
It's fucked too. Or my cab is fucked. Or both. I don't have the money or energy to deal with it, though.

So an old friend of mine died apparently last month and no one told me. I had stopped talking to him a bit after I stopped drinking because he had such a problem with it and he wouldn't get help. I tried so hard to help him over the years of our friendship. We were friends from 16 to 27 and he was my best friend in the whole fucking world during that time. I cared about him so much and had thought about him all the time. Constantly I've brought him up to my wife over the years. I would look at his Facebook from time to time just to try and see how he's doing and he seemed to be the same old Tyson I knew back then. Not a care in the world.

He had some kind of heart complication that he died from, I don't know anymore than that. He's buried in TX as well. I'm going to go down and visit my friend. I'm going to buy him a headstone as I'm sure his worthless parents who abandoned him years and years ago (and as a child) did not get him one or even gave a shit about his burial. If they had, he'd be buried where they are, which is fucking Kansas.

The worst part to me is that no one told me from my old circle. Those assholes knew I loved him and knew I couldn't get back around him because of alcohol and didn't say a goddamn thing to me.

I even asked him to be the God Father of my oldest daughter. That's how much I cared about him.

I'm so fucked up by all of this now.

jwar wrote:So an old friend of mine died apparently last month and no one told me. I had stopped talking to him a bit after I stopped drinking because he had such a problem with it and he wouldn't get help. I tried so hard to help him over the years of our friendship. We were friends from 16 to 27 and he was my best friend in the whole fucking world during that time. I cared about him so much and had thought about him all the time. Constantly I've brought him up to my wife over the years. I would look at his Facebook from time to time just to try and see how he's doing and he seemed to be the same old Tyson I knew back then. Not a care in the world.

He had some kind of heart complication that he died from, I don't know anymore than that. He's buried in TX as well. I'm going to go down and visit my friend. I'm going to buy him a headstone as I'm sure his worthless parents who abandoned him years and years ago (and as a child) did not get him one or even gave a shit about his burial. If they had, he'd be buried where they are, which is fucking Kansas.

The worst part to me is that no one told me from my old circle. Those assholes knew I loved him and knew I couldn't get back around him because of alcohol and didn't say a goddamn thing to me.

I even asked him to be the God Father of my oldest daughter. That's how much I cared about him.

I'm so fucked up by all of this now.

That's majorly fucked up

Invisible Man wrote:I meant that it might be time for some counseling. Probably just pride getting in the way of me doing it.

But yeah, three people have pulled me aside in the last week or two and told me I looked fit to pop. Luckily I work in a field where I can and do tell my boss to fuck off on a nearly daily basis, so that helps relieve some stress.

I need to chill the fuck out. Things are getting away from me.

Go and do the counselling.
Youd be surprised at how much you can train your reptilian/caveman part of your brain to not suck with some tips from a psychologist.

JonnyAngle wrote:

jwar wrote:So an old friend of mine died apparently last month and no one told me. I had stopped talking to him a bit after I stopped drinking because he had such a problem with it and he wouldn't get help. I tried so hard to help him over the years of our friendship. We were friends from 16 to 27 and he was my best friend in the whole fucking world during that time. I cared about him so much and had thought about him all the time. Constantly I've brought him up to my wife over the years. I would look at his Facebook from time to time just to try and see how he's doing and he seemed to be the same old Tyson I knew back then. Not a care in the world.

He had some kind of heart complication that he died from, I don't know anymore than that. He's buried in TX as well. I'm going to go down and visit my friend. I'm going to buy him a headstone as I'm sure his worthless parents who abandoned him years and years ago (and as a child) did not get him one or even gave a shit about his burial. If they had, he'd be buried where they are, which is fucking Kansas.

The worst part to me is that no one told me from my old circle. Those assholes knew I loved him and knew I couldn't get back around him because of alcohol and didn't say a goddamn thing to me.

I even asked him to be the God Father of my oldest daughter. That's how much I cared about him.

I'm so fucked up by all of this now.

That's majorly fucked up

Agreed.
dude.

Yeah, super sorry to hear that, Jwar. Where in TX?

popvulture wrote:Yeah, super sorry to hear that, Jwar. Where in TX?

It's actually near Austin. About 30 minute drive in Manor, TX. He's buried at the Travis County Wells School Cemetery.

I am really sorry Jwar.

We have an accreditation visit today. It's for a program that we just built a $4M facility for...if we don't get it, we're fucked. Probably take the whole College down, honestly, though it might take a couple years.

I'm running the whole thing, which is not good, as it is for a degree that could not be farther from my specialty. But I had to fire the guy running it a while ago because reasons.

Weird day. Wish I weren't responsible for a bunch of shit that has nothing to do with me, but: job.

The institution that accredits together reddits together?

I don't understand, but: yeah.

jwar wrote:

popvulture wrote:Yeah, super sorry to hear that, Jwar. Where in TX?

It's actually near Austin. About 30 minute drive in Manor, TX. He's buried at the Travis County Wells School Cemetery.

Yep, Manor is super close—keep me posted on when you come!

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