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Ok good that helps with my out-of-control guilt.

nieh wrote:My girlfriend of four years broke up with me after a very rough couple of weeks. I'm staying at my mothers house until our lease is up and I just can't handle the change. I've never felt so sad and alone. I haven't eaten since Monday and I feel like shit. I'm drunk again and had to rant.

Don't worry, spouses come and go, ILF is forever.

Truth if I ever heard it.

My TMJ has been fucking awful the last few days. My jaw sounds​ like a gravel driveway.

I just poured my heart and guts out on a letter for online scholarship application, only to find that all the available scholarships do not apply to me. And I got an automatically-generated email saying that I am not eligible for the TAP grant next semester, which doesn't make any sense, and when I try to go to their website the shit never loads and I get an error message. I hope it's a mistake cuz it's too early in the year for the TAP shit to even go through for next semester, and I really really really need that money. Dafuq

odontophobia wrote:

Invisible Man wrote:Wait are you insinuating that I'm not a perfect dad?

nah man.

perfect dad, 10/10.

Invisible Man wrote:Ok good that helps with my out-of-control guilt.

I just called my son in, told him to find some friggin headphones and my phone and film me while I played some riffs I wanted to remember.
He was obliging, but I kind of feel like a dick for doing it.
And when watching them back, they're mediocre doomgaze/postmetal hackery, which makes it even worse.

All aboard the guilt train.

John wrote:I just poured my heart and guts out on a letter for online scholarship application, only to find that all the available scholarships do not apply to me. And I got an automatically-generated email saying that I am not eligible for the TAP grant next semester, which doesn't make any sense, and when I try to go to their website the shit never loads and I get an error message. I hope it's a mistake cuz it's too early in the year for the TAP shit to even go through for next semester, and I really really really need that money. Dafuq

Man, that is fucked.

Iommic Pope wrote:

odontophobia wrote:

Invisible Man wrote:Wait are you insinuating that I'm not a perfect dad?

nah man.

perfect dad, 10/10.

Invisible Man wrote:Ok good that helps with my out-of-control guilt.

I just called my son in, told him to find some friggin headphones and my phone and film me while I played some riffs I wanted to remember.
He was obliging, but I kind of feel like a dick for doing it.
And when watching them back, they're mediocre doomgaze/postmetal hackery, which makes it even worse.

All aboard the guilt train.

John wrote:I just poured my heart and guts out on a letter for online scholarship application, only to find that all the available scholarships do not apply to me. And I got an automatically-generated email saying that I am not eligible for the TAP grant next semester, which doesn't make any sense, and when I try to go to their website the shit never loads and I get an error message. I hope it's a mistake cuz it's too early in the year for the TAP shit to even go through for next semester, and I really really really need that money. Dafuq

Man, that is fucked.

Also 10/10 dad material.

It turns out I have expended the allowed semesters of TAP aid. And I just found out that part of what I received this past year was not grant money but subsidized loans, which somehow was not obvious until just now. It stays deferred as long as I stay in school, but if I somehow get dicked out of the Pell grant too then I am pretty boned. Time for a bigger loan? Ughhh.

Also I bought three $50 light controllers for Escape Rope and one was not the one I ordered but I accepted it anyway as I figured I could still use it. Well it shit the bed after the 14-day eBay return period and the seller is like "sorry, not my problem" even though they never communicated with me when I contacted them about it being the wrong item. And eBay rejected my return request. Hosers!!!

Iommic Pope wrote:[quote="odontophobia"
I just called my son in, told him to find some friggin headphones and my phone and film me while I played some riffs I wanted to remember.
He was obliging, but I kind of feel like a dick for doing it.
And when watching them back, they're mediocre doomgaze/postmetal hackery, which makes it even worse.

At least you recognize the dickness (it doesn't sound that dicky).

Can't sleep again.

Just laying in bed thinking about how I can't seem to get my shit together. Then, I'll sleep in to noon, spend the afternoon in a drowsy funk then get drunk (i actually have fun things to do tomorrow, but that's the general pattern likely for the rest of the week).

Being unemployed suuuuuuuuuuuuuucksssssssss.

Cat just puked on my mixer. It's a Behringer cheapy, but... ugh.

...need to go to cali as a trimmer and bank..."iii askk ma babbby whatsa on her mind she said..munny honeyy moooneyy hunny money honey" ...just want one more trip before kido and me are school bound....no car, no job, no shirt, no service...just got back from sleepin at a really shitty apt, made it home and was thanking the maker for what I got...now feel shut off to the world again in this fukin subdivision....need a buddy with a joint and witty humour...anyone wanna go sk8? Lol

Canada can go fuck itself for all the proclamations as the land for immigrants and openness. A dear friend had a two month (out of six) tourist visa was denied for no reason I can fathom (lack of assets? Because apparently a 23 year old should own property???)
My desire to fistfight Trudeau (he's clearly directly responsible for all my misfortunes) has risen to astronomical levels.

Shit and also spotted a TB2000 go up for sale dirt cheap locally and got really exciting thinking I could cash in, turns out the body had been completely split in half at some point, poorly glued back together and finished like garbage. Again, Trudeau's fault.

I haven't slept throughout the night in 5 weeks now and I'm still functioning somehow? I'm balanced between totally irritated that I'm waking up every couple of hours and surprised that I'm still functioning.

I feel like this has to do with me going vegan and not getting my diet right, but I'm not sure where I'm going wrong.