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I'll file this under mild irritation....

That moment when you have connected with someone on a deep level, for the first time in a very long time, and they live 100 miles away with schedules working against you for the foreseeable future...

The power supply I ordered on monday hasn't fucking shipped yet, so that's like 5-6 days still of using a maximum of 3 pedals, and only select ones.

I'm trying to maintain a good relationship with my most likely soon to be ex wife. Some days it's really difficult. Sometimes when me and her and the kid all hang out, I forget we aren't together anymore.

And then sometimes we'll be having a normal conversation and I'll say some little thing to piss her off. Any mention of anything fun or interesting that I've done makes her immediately resent me. She told me recently, in a particularly angry state, that she sort of wants me to suffer right now...Super cool.

And she's already pretty seriously dating someone but found out that I went on a single date and blew the fuck up about it.

I think she's just trying to keep me on the back burner. I hate it because I do obviously still have some really strong feelings for her, but the longer we're apart, the more I realize we aren't good for each other right now. It would be great to maintain a good relationship but she's not making it easy.

Found out the hard way I'm allergic to dairy. There goes 90% of my diet.

neonblack wrote:I'm trying to maintain a good relationship with my most likely soon to be ex wife. Some days it's really difficult. Sometimes when me and her and the kid all hang out, I forget we aren't together anymore.

And then sometimes we'll be having a normal conversation and I'll say some little thing to piss her off. Any mention of anything fun or interesting that I've done makes her immediately resent me. She told me recently, in a particularly angry state, that she sort of wants me to suffer right now...Super cool.

And she's already pretty seriously dating someone but found out that I went on a single date and blew the fuck up about it.

I think she's just trying to keep me on the back burner. I hate it because I do obviously still have some really strong feelings for her, but the longer we're apart, the more I realize we aren't good for each other right now. It would be great to maintain a good relationship but she's not making it easy.

Ugh.

BitchPudding wrote:Found out the hard way I'm allergic to dairy. There goes 90% of my diet.

Gallon challenge gone wrong?

Sucks mang.

I had a fat ass bowl of corn flakes after not having a fat ass bowl of corn flakes for a while. Sucksss.

But tbh, fuck my bullshit problem. Dude Neon, I dunno what to say other than im sorry and im here for you bro.

Thanks dudes.

We actually hung out today after I posted that and it was fine. We had a really good time. We went out for dinner and then she came and chilled at my house with me. Snuck a little bowl while the kid watched Adventure Time. It was really nice.

Which is kind of worse than the fighting tbh. It's days like this I'm like "why are we doing this?"

Like, we're a fucking family. We're happy to spend time together. We still love each other. We still TELL EACH OTHER.

Ugh. Fuck.

At least band practice went well but I have to return a reverb tomorrow because I need a damn delay.

Awsome.....your back burner statement had me thinkin...good analogie/metaphor....winding roads...you can make it happen, good luck! Fuck yes.....family.

I mean, is she even sure she wants this? The vibe I got from the whole "i went on a date, but you went on one so i freaked" thing was that maybe shes not ready to let go herself.

when your at the park with your kid and some 6 or 7yr old boys show up and start a lets throw golf balls at each others face while our i pad phone thing blasts music that goes" im a nigga who likes to fuck, doin coke off a fat girls butt" .......and your like okay honey time to go...these kids cursin like a sailor i tell you what..

comesect2.0 wrote:when your at the park with your kid and some 6 or 7yr old boys show up and start a lets throw golf balls at each others face while our i pad phone thing blasts music that goes" im a nigga who likes to fuck, doin coke off a fat girls butt" .......and your like okay honey time to go...these kids cursin like a sailor i tell you what..

Man, that is messed up, I'm sorry for you and your kid.

Whatever happened to childhood innocence? I kind of feel sorry for those kids if they actually know what those lyrics mean.

for real. ....it was a good example I guess being there & telling my daughter there is certain people to create boundaries for.

Goddamned bobcat took a shit in my backyard and tried to bury it....it been obviously eating rabbits....

still walking around in a daze. haven't told anyone close to me about my best friend. nothing matters. why am i still here?

I'm sorry, Walt—I've been there and know how crushingly disorienting it can be.

I hope you talk to people when you're ready and avoid bottling it up. Sometimes just chatting about it with someone else who's close to you (or sometimes even not that close) can be a tremendous relief. Hugs, buddy.