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If it makes you feel any better, I am terrible at seemingly all kinds of soldering and general electronics assembly, and it make me wanna die. Yet I still try. Something about Sisyphus...

I'll give you some coplanarity.

Your sweet babyboy here is out of clean underpanties AND its snowing.

smh

I told myself that i would be able to handle a month apart just fine, but i miss the fucking shit out of my boyfriend, we've talked like an hour in two weeks, and all of his emails are about how awful his coworker is and I just wanna drive down there and scoop him back up here. Constant pit in my stomach, thinking about this person i adore, who is too gay for words, in the rural south, alone, working.

Strange Tales wrote:@psychic
I'm building a Shades right now because it requires no programming at all. After this I'm going to try programming the SMT32 chip because I bought the Warps PCB as well. At this point I might just take a break and build an Ambika or something though to clear my head. That Through Hole Clouds kit looks really cool though, if I wanted a second Clouds I would do one of those.

I have thought about an ambika so many times. Not that it would be any easier to program than my ESQ-1, but it would be smaller.

He's working in the fuckin sticks with phone reception only on sundays when he goes into town on his one day of, and intnernet reception in the afternoons during his lunch break in his employer's house. I would love to movie or TV Skype with him, especially once S6 of Game Of Thrones (moar liek Game of Trolling The Book Fans amirite?) Starts in two weeks.

I might go hang out with his cat a little bit this week, if the catsitter is cool with it.

Fucking amazon deliverd my early 30th present from my Mrs to some random who has fucking stolen it. Fuck you. Burn in hell

still way too broke and I've got projects to start and gear i need.

Roommate is gone. Her furniture is getting taken away Friday. She took her dog and TV, so the house is silent. The girl I was seeing ended things. I'm lonely but trying not to be.

That time whenyr tryna not poor object constancy, but how do u object costancy? Work in <5 hours, stomach won't stop churning, everyne cancelled their plans with me today.

That feel when your surface mount soldering starts to really get together and you're about to solder the final pieces on and you realize your pots are 5mm too wide for the panel.

I want to rip off my own cock right now.

Strange Tales wrote:I want to rip off my own cock right now.

I know this.

I don't want to be alone. People keep telling me to learn to be happy by myself. I don't want to be. It sucks and is empty. If this is all there is, why bother?

things are looking up, but this whole day has felt like shit. i feel like i'm in the same place i was almost two months ago again for no reason. got a band going, met someone awesome, getting professional help. but these last few days have been killing me.

oh and a lot of illiterate/flakey CL people have been contacting me which has been constant hell.

I just fought a crazy high fever last night.
I woke up every single hour and still feel like I'm in the middle of hell.
My bed is probably over 100° even though the house temp is 65°.
Plus, my throat is so sore from coughing I can't talk and I can barely drink anything.

chuckjaywalk wrote:I don't want to be alone. People keep telling me to learn to be happy by myself. I don't want to be. It sucks and is empty. If this is all there is, why bother?

do you have any friends where you live? I think having good friends that aren't romantic is much more important than being in a relationship with someone. If you're like me being alone without anyone to express your thoughts and feelings to creates a negative feedback loop and I end up freaking myself out over nothing. hang in there man.