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Strange Tales wrote:A server died at work. I wish it was me instead.

Like died AT work or a server from work died somewhere other than work?
Either way, that really sucks. Hang in there, you'll pull through.

Strange Tales wrote:A server died at work. I wish it was me instead.

I work in a restaurant so this had a completely different meaning to me.

It could also be an internet server, guys.

I figured that, but only after a moment of "aw dang"

If one more well-meaning old person gives me a look of pity and advises me on healthy grieving I'm gonna punch something

D.o.S. wrote:It could also be an internet server, guys.

It was a horrendously old server that has one job, to pull information from our fucking ancient ERP, and convert it to information that a SQL server can process. The package written to do this was made by a fucking wizard because it is so horrendously complex our SQL guy is still trying to write a new one to make it work.

Fuck old ERPs written on ancient Linux distros.

Got new guitar. Found previously undetected fret buzz. Grr..

misplaced my leatherman.

I'm right here, baby

Ayyy and I found it in real life, too.

So, because the FedEx site decided I'm not allowed to ship anything today, that means I'm not making $260 before I finish work today.
Plus, I have two other things to get paid on and shipped out.

Fuxking cunts on eBay who don't pay for shit when they win it and then don't respond when you contact them.
DIE FUCKERS.

thought I was overdosing yesterday. saw my life flash before my eyes and felt 'this is how I'm going out? this is how I'm going to leave my kids?'; couldn't help but think of my friend who od'd earlier in the year. how his heart just stopped with a brownie in his hand,trying to get high. I felt so much shame. my partner thinks we're 'poor', but I'm just a fuck up spending absolute stupid amounts getting fucked up in one way or another. I spent an hour making myself puke because I was so scared. why didn't I just call the ambulance? pride, I guess. I didn't want to be 'that guy' who goes to the hospital because he took to many drugs..it was so stupid. eventually 2 clouds came out and I figured that was the rest of the stuff that didn't dissolve. I was still feeling the most intense I've ever felt in my life at that point. I walked around naked trying to calm myself through meditation/reminding myself I got the rest out and eventually, thankfully, I chilled out. born again. unfortunately, on top of feeling like I was going to die, I have to pawn my bass and flip a pedal to make rent (the fuuuuuuuuuck). a small cost for realizing how much you want to live, I guess..and with that, I'm going to try to live a sober life. I basically haven't been sober since I got off probation in 2011. what a change it will be

Awful situation but obviously it helped you sort some shit out that needed to get sorted. PM me if you need to talk buddy.