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I've been trying to get hold of the drummer from my previous band for months, and when I finally heard back from him he's unable to join me and Eivind's new project due to family issues keeping him 1,5-2 hours away from Oslo. FUCKING BUMMER! He's a great drummer, and drummers in general are really hard to find here. Especially for music that's a little "far out". FUDGEFINGERS!

messed up the focus on a shot for a news assignment this morning - it's the key interview, too. Still usable, but aggravating nonetheless.

The package is at the clearing agency awaiting final release......ffffffffffffffffuuuuuuuu

Uncle Grandfather wrote:The package is at the clearing agency awaiting final release......ffffffffffffffffuuuuuuuu

This x 10000

I'm back at school which is great. But I'm also still working fulltime.
I don't have the energy to do both but if I leave my job I'll pretty much have to sell of all my gear to keep paying my rent. This shits fucking exhausting

Sometimes, I wish the sun would just not come up and I could just die in my bed.

You ok, man?

^pretty much

I've been going through a ton of mental bullshit lately.
I had the worst panic attack of my life last night.
I think I need to talk to a doctor.

I'm not gonna hurt myself but I'm feeling pretty terrible.
Luckily I have really great friends, who help a lot.

My grandpa wont stop hitting my 2 year old and its pissing me the fuck off. we have never hit him and he behaves just fine for us, apart from just normal 2 year old energy and ADD. And my grandpa KNOWS we dont spank. He wont do it in front of me because he knows how I feel, and he's too much of a fucking pussy to hit a small child in front of his father.

neonblack wrote:My grandpa wont stop hitting my 2 year old and its pissing me the fuck off. we have never hit him and he behaves just fine for us, apart from just normal 2 year old energy and ADD. And my grandpa KNOWS we dont spank. He wont do it in front of me because he knows how I feel, and he's too much of a fucking pussy to hit a small child in front of his father.

Fuck that shit dude. If I had kids and someone laid a hand on them, I would lay the biggest arse beating on them them that they have EVER had. But i'm sure your are trying to handle it in a mature fashion. I hope you can nip that shit in the bud somehow.

KaosCill8r wrote:

neonblack wrote:My grandpa wont stop hitting my 2 year old and its pissing me the fuck off. we have never hit him and he behaves just fine for us, apart from just normal 2 year old energy and ADD. And my grandpa KNOWS we dont spank. He wont do it in front of me because he knows how I feel, and he's too much of a fucking pussy to hit a small child in front of his father.

Fuck that shit dude. If I had kids and someone laid a hand on them, I would lay the biggest arse beating on them them that they have EVER had. But i'm sure your are trying to handle it in a mature fashion. I hope you can nip that shit in the bud somehow.

Agreed man, I really hope you can get that sorted out without too much drama

I have had my routine fucked with lately and as a result have forgotten to take my ssri. Haven't had it in about a week and I'm feeling really fucked up and weird. More so than usual. Not depressed, anxious or violent, just weird. On the plus side it has given me a real creative spurt. Wish I had my recording equipment working so I can record some of this madness.

So, I didn't get my paycheck this moth. Which sucks, because I might have to wait until next month to get payed. Starting to wonder if I have more music gear than I should have, maybe I should just sell of a bulk.

This whole week I've had vivid, crazy-ass dreams that wake me up several times a night, and I'm always dying or otherwise suffering in them. They don't scare me awake though; I just die, wake up feeling pretty normal, fall asleep and do it again.