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skullservant wrote:YAY at least it wasn't stolen!!

Yeah I just played it and holy shit, if it's ever separated from me I will be beyond angry/depressed.

Achtane wrote:

gunslinger_burrito wrote:I would so much rather have the problem you guys are having at work. I started at 5AM today and had to work a surprise 10-hour shift. And I have to be there at 5AM for the next four days, which will put me at 7 days straight. I'm inches from putting in my notice, but I don't have anything to fall back on

Grosssss. Good luck, dude. I almost quit my job recently for a dishwashing gig, which wasn't by choice, but I was ready to take ANYTHING else. Then I remembered how shitty washing dishes is.

Working overnight has totally fucked my sleep up, I'm lucky to get 5 hours straight before I jolt awake half a day before my shift starts. Taking a nap before leaving helps, but that's really just a survival technique. I need a lot of sleep or the barriers keeping super-negative-cynical-depressed-asshole mode from activating get dragged down really fast.
I think I might be moving to days soon, which will be a life saver. I have no problem staying up to ridiculous hours, but I absolutely hate working through them.

The shittiest part (I guess) is that I've worked for this company for almost 7 years, so I make a decent wage. If I just bailed, I'd be fucking myself financially.

gunslinger_burrito wrote:

Achtane wrote:

gunslinger_burrito wrote:I would so much rather have the problem you guys are having at work. I started at 5AM today and had to work a surprise 10-hour shift. And I have to be there at 5AM for the next four days, which will put me at 7 days straight. I'm inches from putting in my notice, but I don't have anything to fall back on

Grosssss. Good luck, dude. I almost quit my job recently for a dishwashing gig, which wasn't by choice, but I was ready to take ANYTHING else. Then I remembered how shitty washing dishes is.

Working overnight has totally fucked my sleep up, I'm lucky to get 5 hours straight before I jolt awake half a day before my shift starts. Taking a nap before leaving helps, but that's really just a survival technique. I need a lot of sleep or the barriers keeping super-negative-cynical-depressed-asshole mode from activating get dragged down really fast.
I think I might be moving to days soon, which will be a life saver. I have no problem staying up to ridiculous hours, but I absolutely hate working through them.

The shittiest part (I guess) is that I've worked for this company for almost 7 years, so I make a decent wage. If I just bailed, I'd be fucking myself financially.

There have got to be skills that you have/use there that would allow you to make a parallel move to another company, even across industries. I know it's not what you're looking to do, but a good/new work environment might do wonders for your sense of well being.

When am I going to learn to stop using eBay? Apparently even 600+ perfect feedback dudes aren't safe to buy from.

spacelordmother wrote:
There have got to be skills that you have/use there that would allow you to make a parallel move to another company, even across industries. I know it's not what you're looking to do, but a good/new work environment might do wonders for your sense of well being.

Yeah, I'm going to start looking for something. Besides working in retail, all I'm good at is art (I guess ) and I reeeeally like to work out. What's killing me is not even that I hate the work I'm doing. It's that everyone at my store (and probably company wide) is getting overworked like crazy. It's been too much for like six months straight.

I spent a decade being a dumbass thinking that "someday I'll find the right people to play music with, or a way to make money with art" instead of pursuing those goals.

AAARGH had to sell my Wattson Superfuzz because of moneys and having too many fuzzes. But I don't really think there's any such thing as too many fuzzes, and I hate being responisible. Gonna miss ya, fuzzy *sniff* you'll be killing angles in heaven now (Not really, sold it to some guy who've already bought other fuzzes from me, so I think it's going to a nice home.)

Edit: Yes, he will be killing angles. Not angels.

Been trying to find the lady a reliable car on the cheeps...Test drove two cars in the last couple of days for her, and blew up the fuel pump in the first one and had the head gasket blow on the one I tested today.
Apparently I am really bad luck for people trying to sell their shitty cars.

I have been consistently rejecting the idea that I should just grow up and realise that what I want to do with my life just might not be possible with my mental illness. The fact that I would rather (legitimately) kill myself than work a shitty low skill office job for the rest of my life does make me think that I am an entitled cunt. For someone whose ego was shattered and ground into dust by depression long ago and has little interest in social status I'm oddly invested in experiences of both of those things. I'm not sure if it's because I'm a fucking hypocrite or because I know that giving in will mean that I will be miserable and bored and after a time of prolonged suffering in which I emotionally burden everyone I give a shit about, will finally off myself. Leaning towards the entitled hypocrite cunt thing.

bad day today. combination of depression and anxiety that renders me helpless enough that it takes hours to figure out what to eat. i don't recognize myself any more...i used to know more or less where i was at, but the severe anxiety i started having in Pocatello made me a stranger to myself. i don't even react to marijuana the same way...it used to perk me up and get me doing things, but now a little too much and i'm huddled in bed shaking. i wish i knew what to do.

Today was just SLOW

Got suspended from my university for a semester... yaaaaayyyyy. This year has been a total clusterfuck, I'm completely unable to function.

Dude moved into the cube next to me and is singing/humming his shitty soulful songs SO LOUDLY FUCK. I need headphones ugh help.

Getting an update of your amp mod being finished and way cooler than what was expected but having to wait for the tech to still do the cap job

I want to listen to the Stone Roses and cry.

skullservant wrote:Today was just SLOW

This but today.

Also fuck humidity in the face. Bring back winter soon.