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My insurance dropped me. Now my prescriptions are $340 a month.

"Thanks Obama for making us get into a business that inherently isn't financially solvent without screwing over our own customers." insurance companies

That sucks, man. Maybe brobamacare can help.

My internet's been down for a few days and I have never met my upstairs neighbors, who have the router, so I don't know how to approach them an be like "uh, whats up with that?" So i've been reading instead of watching netflix.

The only real downside is the lack of porn. Seriously, my computer died. So i don't even have my "internet is down" archive of good shit.

Urrrrghhh I should've taken pics and measurements before I ripped this GE-7 apart. Might be $60 down the drain...

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paid December rent today. i now have neither the money for this month;s bills or next month's rent, and it's forecast to get down in the single digits by midweek. i'm scared.

i live in a city where i have 100's of acquaintances but no real friends. the closest to a friend i have is a girl im in love with, who has strong feelings for me too; but because of some strange cosmic working can't be with me. even though she won't leave me alone. i smoke 3 packs a day, drink stupidly, and smoke about an ounce every 4 days. i havent been in a band in about 2 years. i dont like the person i am anymore and i dont know how to change it. im thinking of moving again, but how many cities do i have to run away from. i feel like its a cop out. the joys in my life have slowly been dwindling. i can honestly say i havent been happy in awhile and that scares me. even playing guitar dosent help anymore. im not even excited to warm up the tubes anymore. i just need something. i dont know what. i wish i did.

*edit* you know its bad when you have an emo fit to a whole bunch of strangers online. this scotch is for yall, thanks for listening

i never even pick up the guitar any more unless someone else wants me to play with them. i don't know what happiness is any more except when my cat snuggles with me.

Just got back from the liquor store (45mins away from my fucking dry County) bought some grolsch for some "strap locks" and found out the 12 pack has normal caps. Damnit.

yeah, but you have a 12-pack of Grolsch...

dubkitty wrote:i never even pick up the guitar any more unless someone else wants me to play with them. i don't know what happiness is any more except when my cat snuggles with me.

I wish I could do more than send good vibes. I can't even pretend to know what you're going through but I feel you on the cat thing. They really are the only things that make me smile any more. I don't want to have a future even though I'm a fortunate person with plenty of supportive people in my life. Which makes me feel even worse about everything. I can't focus on my schoolwork and just smoke weed constantly to feel normal.

There's also this girl who I have been friends with for a couple of months and really like her and she seems to kind of be vibing with me but I have no self confidence when it comes to dating and since my last 5 year relationship, I'm absolutely terrified by the thought of one but strangely find myself wanting to be in one. I should just tell her but I'm a worthless daydreamer and I'm almost more comfortable with things being ambiguous so I can just imagine a positive future rather than actually make a step towards happiness.

You know, I really like this thread knowing that while all of our problems are different, we have some common ground. Makes me feel less shitty I guess

fishtankdork wrote:i live in a city where i have 100's of acquaintances but no real friends. the closest to a friend i have is a girl im in love with, who has strong feelings for me too; but because of some strange cosmic working can't be with me. even though she won't leave me alone. i smoke 3 packs a day, drink stupidly, and smoke about an ounce every 4 days. i havent been in a band in about 2 years. i dont like the person i am anymore and i dont know how to change it. im thinking of moving again, but how many cities do i have to run away from. i feel like its a cop out. the joys in my life have slowly been dwindling. i can honestly say i havent been happy in awhile and that scares me. even playing guitar dosent help anymore. im not even excited to warm up the tubes anymore. i just need something. i dont know what. i wish i did.

*edit* you know its bad when you have an emo fit to a whole bunch of strangers online. this scotch is for yall, thanks for listening

That sounds like such a frustrating situation with that girl. I'm pretty sure that would absolutely destroy me so stay strong!

I can't seem to make any friends I have any sort of emotional relationship with, sucks having no one to confide in so I hope that picks up for you, I really do.

i'm struggling to get out of a nasty depression that took me in October, when the job i got here didn't work out and i then got horribly sick for a week. since then i've been living like a cave creature, eating hardly at all and sucking down Ativan.

I haven't talked to my best friend in two months now. I got...bro-dumped? I don't remember doing anything offensive last time we were hanging out.
Calls/texts/emails get no response. I know he's not dead. Dunno if he's in a rut or what, but this one-sided effort pisses me off, so...

I've had that happen a lot in the past, it's usually because of new girlfriends.

Yeah, that could certainly be the case. I haven't ruled out his possessive girlfriend.
It's not that hard to answer a text, though. Even if its "yo let's not hang out anymore".