It feels pointless. I can't make music. I hate video games. I sit at work listening to music and working like 15 minutes a day. I serve no purpose. I'm empty.
My force of habit, I am an insect
I have to confess I'm proud as hell of that fact
The retired guide dog that we've been walking for the last few months had to be put down yesterday after an undiscovered tumor burst in her stomach. Hit like a ton of bricks, she only had about 9 months of actually being a regular dog but hopefully she enjoyed the hell out of them.
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Posted that last whiny bit kind of off the cuff earlier, didn't pay attention to the two posts before me. I hope y'all feel better! I sound like a turd bitching about pedal woes when people have real shit going on
neonblack wrote:They say tone is in the hooks
D.o.S. wrote:I'm pretty sure moderation leads to Mustang Sally.
coldbrightsunlight wrote:Yes I am a soppy pop person at heart I think with noises round the edge
Brother-in-law called me the other day to let me know that he is moving to Colorado to take a new job. Tentative plan is my sister will be moving later while my nephew finishes school. Stupid plan. But weird that they are all leaving. Not super close to them. Sister is 10 years older, and she moved away when I was 8, so we were never too close.
Then the other shoe dropped tonight.
Parents took us out to dinner and informed us they will be moving to South Carolina. Already retired, have friends there, want to enjoy the next 10 years of good health while they can. Can't say I am super close with them, just different lifestyles and interests.
But shit, all my family is leaving and I feel super weird about it. Will have to travel to see them, don't exactly have that in our budget. Besides, taking time away from work to relieve stress is equally stressful to hang with the family for a week. Childhood home will become someone else's, which is just more weird than sad, and we couldn't afford their home.
I guess I am just trying to process thoughts. Nothing poignant. Just realizing life won't be the same for me or my kids, maybe took our close proximity for granted over the years.
Hm. Yeah, that's a little troubling. Had some similar stuff happen in the last couple years. We went away for five; came back and everything had changed, and family sort of fell apart.
Weird that your parents are ok with just ducking off to SC. What about grandbabies? Is there anything keeping you in NE? I imagine school and friends...strange to come unmoored like that.
Also nothing poignant, just that adulthood kinda blows. A lot of people reach that point where they're the center of their little tribe, and you can't count on others for much. Feels weird to have no one to rely on, no ancestral home or whatever. I've been there for awhile now and it hasn't really gotten much easier.
The most merciful thing in the world, I think, is the inability of the human mind to correlate all its contents.
Just found the girl I've been seeing didn't ghost me, she was just in the hospital for a few days after being assaulted in her apartment building. I am angry and upset and worried and helpless and I don't know what to do.
friendship wrote:Just found the girl I've been seeing didn't ghost me, she was just in the hospital for a few days after being assaulted in her apartment building. I am angry and upset and worried and helpless and I don't know what to do.
friendship wrote:Just found the girl I've been seeing didn't ghost me, she was just in the hospital for a few days after being assaulted in her apartment building. I am angry and upset and worried and helpless and I don't know what to do.
Sorry to hear.
Thanks dude. She says she's going to be okay after a couple procedures, and her parents came in to take care of her. I just wish I could do something. They haven't caught the motherfucker who did this yet.