The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread...

[Iommic Pope]

Nah dude, go full Peter Gabriel on that shit!

Holy fucking seconded.
Sledgehammer styles.

My other thought was go the David Byrne.
Just because David Byrne.

[Eivind August]

Nah dude, go full Peter Gabriel on that shit!

Holy fucking seconded.
Sledgehammer styles.

Well, yeah, but Genesis, dude.

[Invisible Man]

Talking Heads vs. Genesis...that's tough.

[actual]

You're all wrong. So wrong. Couldn't be more wrong.

[actual]

Actually go Dave Gahan. Just Can't Get Enough style.

[Iommic Pope]

Nah dude, go full Peter Gabriel on that shit!

Holy fucking seconded.
Sledgehammer styles.

Well, yeah, but Genesis, dude.

With no disrespect to the body of work Gabriel contributed to under Genesis, his solo stuff is somehow even more whacky and entertaining.

Talking Heads vs. Genesis...that's tough.

Yeah, particularly when married with neonnoise.

Actually go Dave Gahan.

Ooh, fuck yeah.
Contender.

[Iommic Pope]

I fully realise that the claim to which my first comment in that previous post is staking may or may not be disproportionate to truth and/or reality.

[Eivind August]

[actual]

One could argue that your assessment may or may not be = false

[popvulture]

Peter Gabriel wins everything.

[Chankgeez]

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-uhi2_oBdXM[/youtube]

[actual]

One could argue that your assessment may or may not be = false

Wait a minute

[actual]

Fuck me

[actual]

In other news, I just ate a massive fucking plate of couscous, which I will proceed to regurgitate over the next 2 hours or so.

[Jwar]

Potential for long post coming.

So the other night my mother called me and asked me to take my father to the hospital. He wanted to drive himself, but she was insisting I drive him. I'm only 5 mins drive away and I really had no idea what was going on. Apparently he's been coughing up some blood here and there, and of course that's a huge concern since he's a cancer survivor.

On Saturday I spent about 5 hours in the hospital with him, leaving around 1 am. The bleed was being caused by irritation because he has massive amounts of scar tissue from radiation treatment around his throat from his previous cancer. They did a cat scan of the neck and lungs and found a mass just above his voice box and below the glottis (the flap that allows you to swallow). So directly in the larynx.

The doctor said it was very suspicious for a recurrence of cancer, which this year marks 5 years clear for him.

I waited with my mother, who understandably was not having able to keep it together (she's already been through this once and it was not easy by any means), for the ambulance to arrive and transport him to a different hospital to have some testing done in the morning hours. My brother arrived and I was able to leave and get some rest since I would be the first one at the hospital in the morning. My mother has a condition with her digestive system where she cannot control when she needs to go to the restroom. It always happens in the morning so she does not leave the house until she goes. It's extremely sad, and I wish there we something to do, but she's been to all the top specialists and they all scratch their heads.

Anyway, I got 4 hours of sleep after sitting in the hospital parking slamming my steering wheel and balling like a baby. I had to keep it together for my mother in the hospital, well and my father, but once I left...I lost it. I almost couldn't drive I was so overwhelmed and just defeated by this possibility that my dad could have cancer again.

The next day I arrived at the hospital and sat with him alone for about 3 hours, maybe 4 before the doctor came or anyone else from my family. The doctor looked in his throat and said she does not suspect it to be cancerous but she cannot be sure because of massive amounts of mucus build up. So he's going to KU Med in KC to get it cleared out and has been put on a round of steroids and antibiotics.

The mass is constricting his airway and has narrowed it to the point that if it grows any longer, he will not be able to breath. He will need a tracheotomy if that occurs, which I'm hoping it doesn't.

This week at some point, I'm driving down to MD Anderson in Houston, TX to have it looked at and biopsied by his regular oncologist. I am also going to insist on a PET scan to clear the rest of his body if it is in fact a metastasized tumor growth.

Right now I extremely overwhelmed, depressed, angry and just about every emotion possible. I'm trying to stay positive and keep in high hopes but it's hard.

My father has millions of dollars in assets, which the last time this happened, I had to take care of all his finances. We just sat this morning at my instances to go over all of this and though it's slightly less complicated than it was almost 5 years ago, it is still very complex. That alone is a nightmare that I will have to face, but I don't care. I just don't want my dad to die. My mother is not physically strong enough or mentally for that matter to handle this again. I don't know what to do. I'm a guy who prays, so I'm doing that, but at the same time I'm cursing God for this. There's so much confusing and frustration and I feel like using again, but I'm not going to because my family needs me more than I need to escape.

I guess my point in sharing this is that I need support guys. Moral is fine, prayers are fine, well wishes are fine. Anything. I'll take it. I'm hoping we know something solid soon so this can either begin or be over. I will not be at ease until we know though. Thanks for listening.